Sunday, November 13, 2022

Climbing High

Love this:
Mini fridge,
These
Messages
Of affirmation
All over the walls.

Watch me climb
As high as I need to
To find
The truth there
Floating around in
The fresher air.

Tell me what happens
And where do
We go
When everything
Changes in
All of the halls?

Just keep climbing
Higher and higher
Because
Something is
There, 
I swear.

Saturday, October 29, 2022

So, What's The Hardest Part?

Facing this:
The hardest part.
This
Having nothing
To hide behind.
This
Reality
Lurking
Behind so many
Curtains.
This room
Without me
Looms.
I want
To live forever,
Is that
Too much
To ask?

Saturday, October 1, 2022

When I can't speak,

Here's what I need:

Wait for me in

Conversation.

Slow down.

Ask me questions 

Then give me time

 Don't jump

Ahead. 

Stay with me.

Understand that it's

Lonely

Being misunderstood,

So just be

With me 

 




 

Wednesday, September 7, 2022

All these fricken linens
And all these fucking chucks
They're compounding
It's astounding
Everything running amok

Pooping with an audience?
Try being that audience
And passing out is not allowed
Trust me,
I've tried 

Part of my job
Is to swab
From their nostrils
To their brains,
Rearranging what's inside
Somehow, they survived.
Somehow, so did I.

I love what I do
But contending with
The fucking chucks
The indecision,
The fricken linens
Nose swabs
Poop blobs...

Take me somewhere else!














Thursday, September 1, 2022

Before the dawn, she

Waits to give fist bumps, high fives

"Glad you're feeling better."



Tuesday, August 16, 2022

I'm So Mad

Sleeping for hours
Then grief for days.
I am powerless
To stop these
Changes. 

Sunday, August 14, 2022

Turn the heat over
So it can thrive,
I say as the heat
Makes me super alive.

 

Thursday, July 28, 2022

Overridden

 Don't ask

For consent

Stay on task

Do what's meant.

Tick the boxes 

Take my safety

Force me to transfer

Then leave me in agony.

Is it that important

To do everything you came for?

Does my pain matter at all

Anymore?

Now I spend all day

Recovering stamina

Pushed beyond

My limits first.

Can I ride out muscles

Tensing

When everything hurts?

Don't tell me PTs

Aren't damaging

When I know

They are.

When I know them

Deeply

And I know many

Bear their scars.


Friday, July 22, 2022

Finding Myself

 Stuck in place

Pseudomomonas daze

I try to write in a world 

That's ever-changing.

Try to find my voice again

In this place that makes

Me voiceless.

Can I come back

From this black

Hole of nothing

To hope for something?

So let me find myself

Learn myself

Understand that this is a

New self.

Just as good

And worthy

As the old.

Tuesday, December 7, 2021

Things are changing
Rearranging 
I am 
Wordless
I am 
Draining
Energy
And time
Is caught

I need
To do the things I
Oh so carefully
Have 
Planned

But now it's now
And now I wonder
If and where
I'll
Ever
Land.