Tally Marks

Put another tally mark
Up on the wall
Because this marks
The day when -
Yet again -
We are turning
In endless
Circles.
This marks
The day when -
Yet again -
We are waiting
For you
To come
To your senses.
Dig down deep
And make a change.
Only you
Can save
Yourself.

Dark Night

Is it that time
Of year again?
The time to spin
And then descend?
Is it the time
To watch you
Slowly
Disappear?
Is it that time
Of year again
Where no matter what
You can't say when?
Where we watch you grasp
We sit back and ask
"What can be done?"
When the lies run amok
And the monster's won?
How do we cope
On this years-long journey
When there is never
An end in sight?
And how will we ever
See you through
To the other side
Of this dark night?

Wasted Time

Spending so much time
Just waiting and thinking.
How much more time will I
Waste with this worrying?
Can I keep up with all
That's going down?
Can I stay strong
Without turning around?
These thoughts and more
Come haunt me each night.
I wonder when - if ever -
Things will be
All right.

March Madness

It means a lot
To give and take
Admit mistakes
And then move on.
It means a lot
To think upon
The nearly lost
The still with us
And then move on.
Do you remember
The fear we felt?
I do.
Do you remember
How are hearts broke?
I do.
Do you know how much
You are loved?
I hope
You do.

Breathe Again

So
Much
Crazy
Lately.
Can I
Just
Breathe
And
Relax
And
Be?

Connected Focus

Sometimes
It takes
Some time
To come
To terms
With
Whatever
Has happened
Or is
Happening.
But
It is not
Healthy
To worry
About
What
Might
Happen.
Rather,
Just focus
On
What is.

Faded Memories

Can I see
Your face
In the mess
Of this
Reflection?
Can I remember
The way
You once
Were?
I can hear
Your voice
Telling
Story
After
Story.
I can imagine
Your laugh
Falling all
Around me.
I can't see
Your face
But I know
You're in there.
Give yourself
A chance
To smile
And to laugh
Before this, too,
Slips away.

Taking Care

I am
Doing
What I
Need
To do.
Will you?
It
Does not
Matter.
One does
Not
Have to do
With
The other.
Even if
You don't
Take care
Of you,
I will
Still
Take care
Of me.

Distinguishing

There are
Things we can do
Sometimes.
And sometimes
There is
Nothing
We can do.
The trick is
Figuring out
Which
Is
Which.

Not So Pretty

Pick up
The pieces
Of pretty
Little life.
Know that
Change is
Not so
Quick to
Stick -
And all
Is not
So good.
It's just
Beginning
And life
Is not
So pretty.

Over

Starting over.
Starting
Again.
Save me
From
This risk
Within.
Let him see
The light
Waiting.
Let him
See what
This is
Creating.

Prioritize

Such is life.
Such a peace.
Such insecurity.
Such that I can't
Know
What's just around the
Corner.
Such truth, though,
In such a way
Here to say:
Breathe
Think
Then
Do.

Letting Go

Here I am
And I don't understand
Why what is happening
Happened
Again.

Resenting Resentment

Tonight
I pray
For those
I resented
Because
Everyone
Deserves
To be
Presented
Before
Someone
Who cares.
Everyone
Deserves
Joy, peace
And love
Shared.

Need-To-Know Basis

What is going
On tonight
When right
Is wrong
And wrong
Feels right?
What is going
On right now
When things
Come to light
But I don't
Know how?
I need not figure
Out
Everything -
There's just
One thing
I need:
To understand
And be understood.
To believe
And be believed.

Where's The Bottom?

Give him a chance
To find himself.
Give him a chance
To fall.
Don't keep up this
Crazy circle
Reaching behind
The wall.

Nothing Changes

My head is
Spinning.
Is there no
Ending
To this weird
World
I'm living
In?
Just know
That it
Does not
Get easier.
It hurts
Just the same
When someone
You love
Is struggling.

Futuristic

One day
There will be
No more fear
Inside of me.
All I'll feel is
Deep contentment
No longer
A deep resentment.
Let it be so
And let me grow
And embrace
What's just
Around the bend.

Maintenance

What do I need to say
And how do I maintain
My power and control?
I'll leave you to yourself
But cover you with love,
And I'll cover myself
In that same love.

Mirror Image

So much negativity
Leaves me feeling
So very negative -
When, really,
I shouldn't let
Certain things
Get to me.
But today they can
And today they do.
So, today,
I will do my best
To remember that
Their reactions
Are the result of
Their own faces being
Reflected
Back to them.
They are seeing
Themselves,
Not me.