Fellowship

It is beyond me
And beyond words
To really express
What it means
To be among
This unique group
Of friends.
Despite the fact that
Time has passed,
It doesn’t much matter
In the grand scheme
Of things,
Because
We are still
Close.

Stress

Life is bigger
Than me
Right now.
I am anxious
About this
New phase -
This new place
My life is headed.
I don’t feel ready,
But I know
I am.
And now I’m just
Praying
That everything
Works out.

Moving

Something new
Is about to happen,
And I am excited
And nervous.
I haven’t ever done
Anything like this
Before.
So I pray
That this
Will be okay
And I will succeed
At something.

Rush

In a hurry
Tonight
Because
Absent-mindedness
Took me over
Momentarily,
And I almost
Forgot.
I almost
Didn’t write
Down anything,
Though I always
Write something,
Even if it doesn’t
Amount to more
Than some words
On a page.
They are my words.
That is what’s important.

The Night Before

It’s the night before
A Savior came,
Born to a teenage girl.
The night before
Salvation came
Through a child for all the world.
The night before
The shepherds saw
The star light up the sky -
The night before
He took His first breath
And later, chose to die.
It’s the night before
Mary gave birth to a Son
Only to give Him up.
The night before
The Boy would grow
And one day drink the cup.
It’s the night before.
It’s Christmas Eve.

Tomorrow

Though it isn’t a
Sure thing,
I can still
Look forward to it.
Though I am not sure
What will happen
I can still
Walk in it.
Though something
Might come up
I can still
Make it.

Anticipation

There are times
Like now, for instance -
When I am
Excited
About
Things to come.
But
I am more
Excited
To give.
I wonder how long
This feeling will last,
And if I can
Hold onto it.

Different Sort

Usually
I get up early -
Or don’t sleep well,
But this year I did.
Strange thing.
Overall
This has been
A different sort of year,
And for that
I am
Grateful
Beyond anything
I could write down.

Resolving

It helps
In ways
I cannot name
To address
And readdress
The feelings I have.
It is the resolving
Of years-long
Issues
Through writing
And expression.

An Unexpected Gift

My words
And my pride
Are now on display -
But a private one.
I knew what I was getting
But ended up getting
So much more
Than I expected.
This is such a priceless
And unexpected
Gift.

Change

There is always
Something
Going on
Inside me.
Lately,
It’s been guilt,
And regret
And anxiety.
I hope that soon
The something
Going on is
More akin to
Peace
And satisfaction
And hope.

Not My Best

I’m not particularly inspired
For anything today,
Not for moving words
Or moving on.
Now that I’ve spoken
Everything I had to say,
There is nothing much left
To share about me.
Except that I feel unmotivated,
Uninspired, and
Unappealing -
Especially now.
As I waste my opportunity
To express whatever is
In my heart on
Useless downer words
That won’t do much of anything -
Or even be looked at again.
I hope tomorrow
I can bring more to the table
Than this.