Falling

God, I come before You
Falling down upon my knees
I offer up the pieces of my heart
Please hear me
Jesus, You know the darkness
That has entangled me
Let Your light shine through
And Your love heal me
I’m falling before You
You’re falling around me
To heal me of my brokenness
And make me whole again
I’m down
Lower than I’ve ever been
Lord, I need You
To smile again
I’m all I have to offer
Though I know it isn’t much
Please understand my need
I hope that I’m enough
Take me up out of the valley
Set my feet upon the rock
‘Cause I’m falling before You
You’re falling around me
Lord, heal me of my brokenness
And make me whole again

In Secret

With careful eyes
You search my soul,
I am Your creation.
Though I’ve asked
Darkness to hide me,
You always find me
Anyway.
Before I commit
The most awful sin,
You already know
That I will.
And even when
It comes to pass,
I know deep in my heart
I cannot run from You.

Risen

I’ve been away
Now here I am
I want to follow
You again.
Help my sin,
My unbelief.
Please, Jesus be
My true relief.
All I want is
Freedom from this.
Please don’t turn
Away from me
My life is Yours
Again today…
And freedom is
My plea.

Mighty

The Lord is here to bring you peace
So aim for the heights
And never cease.
Jesus has come to give you love
Whenever you need it,
Set your gaze above.
With faith you will endure
This race is yours to win
In His strength, you’ll persevere
And see His face again.

Loving You A Little More

Many yesterdays have passed
Since I lost you to your dream
Today is here and you’re lonely -
Your tears an endless stream
But on the days you’re missing
What life you left behind
Know that you are never absent
From my heart, my soul and mind
We cannot reach each other now
The distance is too great
But when I hold you I will know
It has been worth the wait
Our Father is so pleased
With you, His precious child
For Him you gave up everything
And on you He has smiled
So when you stand alone and weep
Upon a distant shore
Know that when He looks at you
He’s loving you a little more.

Plateau

Where am I
That I can’t feel You
Yet I hear You
Like You’re in the room with me?
How can I
Sit here pretending?
Life’s not all it’s meant to be
For me
Lost in the darkness
Surrounded by light
My heartbeat quickens
As You draw near
Stay with me
Though I’m fallen
Broken, scarred
Don’t walk away
My soul is screaming,
“Come!”

Burn

My heart’s aflame
With holy passion,
Can’t You see
I’m burning?
God, I’m longing
With everything
Can’t You hear
Me calling?
Deep within
My soul is weeping
Precious tears, Lord,
Are falling for them.
Desperate for
My generation
I hit my knees
And cry out Your name!

After All

If I could see you one more time
I’d want to tell you again
Thank you for everything you’ve done
You’ve been the best to me
After all
After everything you went through
You still came back
Helping me off my knees
Please, Shane, understand
Know that I’m trying the best I can
Yet there are still times
I can’t shake you from my mind
Your face consumes my thoughts
Your voice dances in my head
And I can’t sleep tonight
Because there you are again, after all
Helping me to my knees
So much more than just a friend
You were my confidant
My truest friend, always
There’s no rhyme to this one
There doesn’t have to be
Because this poem, it seems
Is just between us two
I want you back
Can’t say you’d stay
Your selflessness
Consumed you.
Can’t meet you ‘til eternity
Sometimes it seems so far
Away from where I am now
Seems so far to go
I look at where I’m at
And can’t help but think I’m blessed
To be alive, ‘cause that was
Your one wish…
After all
Your amazing soul
Is flying above me
You’re around me
Shane, I could repeat your name
Time and time again
But even that won’t change tonight
I wish I could see you just once
When you catch my tears in your hand
Please bring them to our Father
To mingle with His own so we might
Be united, and I might not forget
After all
He gave His Son for you and me
Jesus died to set us free
So here I am, after all
So with our tears in your grasp
And your love in our hearts
Dying, we live
After all

Always

I can’t live without You
I can’t live without You
And so I’ll follow like a child
In the shadow of Your wings
‘Cause I can’t live without You
I’m on my knees, Jesus
Stay close to me, Jesus
I’ll stretch my hands up to the sky
I’ll wait for You, don’t pass me by
‘Cause I just can’t live without You
I can’t live without You!
I just can’t live without You!
I can’t pray without You
I can’t rise without You
I can’t stay without You
I would die without You
…And so I’ll follow like a child
In the shadow of Your wings

Getting Past Myself

What do I have for You?
What have I done for You?
Where have I gone for You?
I haven’t lived for You
So why not let me fall?
Leave me by the side
Can’t get past myself
Just can’t get past myself
I have nothing but my pride
But I know You’re it for me
Gotta figure out how
To climb back to the top
How can I pretend it can’t be?
There’s nothing true
In how I live my life
Everything is lost when
I can’t get past myself
In my heart there’s desire
But it’s buried underneath
All of me
If I want You, I can’t have me
So clean me out
Of everything taking me away
From You
So I’ll go after everything
Without hesitation
I want You
Please lose me
Gotta get past myself

The Melody

The song of your soul
Escapes through your fingers
With each note you play
And each word He writes
The cry of your heart
Shows through your desire
Reaching this generation
Through His gift of song
So play the melody of salvation
Pray the chorus of repentance
Let this dim world see the glow
That God’s love brings to you
Show the world they’re not forgotten
Keep on reaching for the prize
Sing to them a song of freedom
The gift is theirs to realize
You’re the melody in God’s head
His beautiful one
You’re the chorus in His heart
Of you, He can’t get enough
So play on
The song that all should hear
Give them the melody
Let God do the rest

The Veil

I thought it couldn’t happen
To someone like you
Someone with a firm foundation
And who knew the truth
It broke my heart to realize
You have been deceived
Talking like the blind man did
Before Jesus set him free
Life got hard to understand
When you let go of His hand
All control you once possessed
Is twisted now and you have less
Hold on
Please don’t lose hope
Stay strong
We’ll help you cope
All around your feet
Broken strongholds will lay
You’ll no longer blame the Potter
For how He made the clay
Prayer is stronger than deception
In Him lies true perfection
There is no condemnation
Just follow God’s direction
Can’t you see what is before you?
You’ve been blinded by deceit
Father, lift the veil from her eyes
Let her know she’s really free.
Looking at the words you wrote
Knowing that I can’t get closer
But I can tell you that you’re covered
By His fingerprints of love

Between Now And Forever

When I opened my eyes
And looked around
All I saw was darkness
And fear
A void with no end
And no beginning
Had me trapped
There was no escape
Now I come before Him
And pray that His release
Would fall upon my heart
Captivate my soul
It didn’t come so quick
As I would have liked
Waiting, suspended
Between now and forever
And though I prayed again
For my freedom
That He’d deliver me
The answer was still slow to come
What could I do
But stand here alone
Caught in the hopelessness
No chance of light
I got on my knees
Wasn’t giving up yet
“Lord, I need You
Please show Yourself
Tell me that I am
The one You desire
Let nothing else stand in
Our way”
I stood in the darkness yet again
But words echoed in my head
“I already love you
I just need your trust”

Song For Jesus

Only a love song
No fancy words
Just happy You know me
Glad that I’m Yours
Thank You for choosing me
And hearing my cries
Thank You for suffering
And that You died
Jesus, thank You for believing in me
Even when I couldn’t see
Thank You for the price You paid
So that I could be free
My friendship with You is
Incomparable
Your love for me is
Undeniable
I know You’re much more than
A Friend from above
And I know when You look down
All You see is love

The Child Inside

The child inside is what I see
When I look at you
Excitement hides behind your eyes
While searching for the truth
The fire lies untold inside
Your servant’s heart
Only God now can ignite
In you a holy spark
Intimacy is my prayer
That you may grow in Him
And know that this fire
Is only just a glimpse
The plan to prosper not destroy
Is bigger than words on a page
It’s more than that and it applies
To you at every stage
The closer you walk
The greater the blaze
To start a revolution
A sanctified chase
Worthy and lovable
You can stand tall
And know in your heart
That you’ll follow His call
Someday the innocence
Will be personified
Then we’ll all see
The child inside

Better Tomorrows

Halfway around
The world, there sits
A girl whose heart
Wants more than this
She dreams of feeling
The embrace of her King
Her soul aches
Just to hear Him sing
With eyes fixed
On what’s above
She lives for
Her one true Love
That flame of passion
Growing inside
We can’t help
But see her shine
The world she knows
Holds pain and sorrow
But she knows in her heart
There are better tomorrows
Once more in a place
With people she loves
Worshipping her King
In the heavens above
Burning hunger
Driving fire
She will receive
Her heart’s desire
No more shame
Or pain to live
Only freedom
And love to give

Heart Cry

Open my eyes to Your truth
Bring me back to Your side
I long for a passion
But fail every time I try
Reaching for the highest point
Realizing my heart’s not strong
Longing to go deeper
But needing to hold on
I can’t go anywhere without You
Can’t stay where I’ve been
I must let go of all I’ve known
To follow You again
Break the shell around me
That holds me captive now
Let me see Your true form
Someone, show me how!
Climbing up just to get broken
I want to fly again
With only You beside me
With You I’m diving in
Don’t leave me here alone
Please lift me off my face
Hold me in Your arms
And point me to Your grace
I choose life, to follow You
No matter what it takes
I will fall and get back up
Though my heart may ache
I’m following You
You’re calling out
You’re covering me
And I’m finally free

Holy Fire

Drop a match
Ignite my heart
All I want
Is Your love
Burning hunger
My desire
Without You
I’m falling
Over my head
Unable to swim
I want release
No more fear
Come to me!
I cry to You
Please draw near
Place Your fire in me

Breath Of Life

Sometimes
We don’t understand
Why God seems
Just beyond our hand
And sometimes
We can’t seem to see
The truth of God’s love
And our victory
There are days we forget
What God really meant
When He gave His Son for us
Sacrificed on the cross
Remember
Your weakness in Him
Is turned to strength
It’s time to see the truth
No matter who we are
Or what we’ve done
We need not worry about
What we will become
God has come to break your chains
He has come to set you free
The battle’s fought, the dragon’s slain
You are clean; release your shame!
Love is patient, love is kind
He will deliver you
The war is ours, it’s sealed in blood
Our Lord will see us through
Stand firm today and run the race
That God has called you to
He sees your desire and your heart
Just let Him carry you

Longing

Take me apart from the inside out
Search me with holy eyes
Rip out all my selfishness
Bring me to Your side.
My heart breaks for You
Come into this place where souls are dead
Release new life upon them
My chest aches with tears unshed.
I’ll lift my head up to the sky
And praise Your name forever
I hope You’ll always hear my cry
For love, nothing can sever.
Draw me to Yourself, Lord
I’ll stay true to Your name
I’ll raise my voice in song and praise
And never bring You shame.
Your beauty surpasses everything
I ever thought as lovely
Now I truly see today
Your real vision of me.
Breathe new life into this place
Break every heart that beats
So they might finally know You
And so they might believe.

Salvation

Last year, the veil fell away
And I rejoiced
Because today I see
Last year, the burden was lifted
So I could stand
Free of worry and fear
Last year, I got a new heart
To replace the emptiness
Fill it with His love
Last year, the chains were broken
I’m a child of light today
The darkness is in another place
I’ve lived of the world for nineteen years
But only the last one counts
Because I’ve been freed by Jesus
He chose me and I said yes

More Than A Friend

Life calls for more
Hearts long for You
We need more than a friend
To lead us today
Though the world says
What we have is enough
I know we need more
To make it in life
Jesus, we need You,
More than a friend,
But a Sure Hand to guide us
In ways we can’t see

Promise

Please, promise me
That if your eyes should fall
Upon the King of my heart
You’ll let Him know
That I am weak
With passion for Him.
My flesh is impure
But my heart desires Him.
Please, tell my Lover,
The King of my heart
I’m so full of longing
That I can barely stand.
I belong to Him.
He sees my sin and loves me still.
All I ever needed I saw before my eyes.
I’ll keep searching ‘til I find
The One who loves me for
Eternity.
The hunger inside me
Is deeper than I can explain.
Passion flows through me
And I hit my knees.
Please…
Please promise me.

Back To My Heart

Come back to my heart
Sweet King, Jesus!
I called out Your name
And You came forth.
Come back to My heart
O child of Mine
I’m reaching for you
You’re running from Me.
Be not afraid
Of what You may find
When You come
Back to my heart.
Look deeper than surface
And back to my heart,
My joys and sorrows
Are written there.
Gaze out as far as you can
Across the earth and to its edge
Now look farther — that’s the love
I have for you, back to My heart.
Come back to My heart
You who have strayed
So I will truly see
All I have yearned for.

His Cry

All those I look upon
Are those I call My own
I’ll return their hearts of flesh
Cast out the one of stone
As saints they walk the path daily
As sinners they stumble and fall
Those who seek love in Me will find it
Though they may stumble or have to crawl
Come to Me, all you who are hopeless
You belong with Me
Alongside those who are standing
You too deserve to be free
Take your eyes off the world
Turn them to My grace
See for yourself how much I love you
I’ll take you from this place
Please don’t think you’re unworthy
I love you and made you pure
Your heart is what I long for now
It’s your hunger I adore
My child, please trust in Me
I want the best for you
My plans for your life are huge
More than you ever thought you knew
And though you may not believe
The plan I laid for you is best
You will remain in My care
And be forever blessed

This Life

This life hurts more than anything
I can’t express how it feels
To know that now I could be different
Just like everyone else.

Nothing’s different and I’m still weak
I couldn’t believe, now I’m falling again.
Everyone stared and expected something
But they didn’t see what they wanted.

I couldn’t believe so I’m stuck in this life
God could heal me, but I was too scared.
I doubted too much and nothing changed,
Every time I take a step I’m filled with Sadness.

I’m not blaming God, please understand
He did His part; the rest was mine.
I didn’t want to fall, but now here I am
Ground’s coming up faster than ever before.

It rips me apart to live in this life
With nothing to hope for on earth.
All I can pray for is peace and mercy
So maybe I’ll still get my wings.

I’m not giving up I’ve just fallen down
Not blaming God, cause I know it’s not Him
Still clinging to this life even though it hurts
‘Cause what else is there if you don’t have God?

Fighting to climb it and to stay strong
Tears flow in secret where nobody sees,
I know I can make it through somehow
I’ll find His hand again in this life.

Run To Me

Run to Me
When your heart is breaking
And you’re bleeding;
Faith is shaken.
Run to Me
When your soul is weeping;
Eyes downcast
And hope is slipping.
My child, run to Me
When darkness is all you can see
Even when I seem far away
And you’re living on your knees.
I love you every minute
You hurt now but the reward is sweet,
Even when you think I can’t
My love for you is deep.
Run to Me
Sweet child of Mine
And all good gifts here
Will be thine.

Crisis Of Belief

There was a time and place
One recognized his faith
And the other turned away -
His answers written in the clay
Today is here and now
His brother wonders how
The other just believed
In the grace he received
While his brother is descending
One soul is rejoicing;
Dancing with the angels
In eternal life above
But what remains on earth
Is an angel with one wing
Crushed heart and broken spirit
No one left to love
Will they come together
So both will live forever?
Only time will tell the story
That both may see the glory.
Pray for the one who’s left behind
With so much anguish on his mind
Let him see the promise
That is just above his head
A soul flies free of pain now
But he can’t tell his brother
He’s forgiven him for all
The things he left unsaid
God, have mercy on him
The one-winged angel left in sin
When his brother fell to grace
Because You looked upon his face.

Sitting On God's Shoulders

High up
Above all
Looking down
I will not fall
Back down below
To the world
That crushed and broke
This little girl.
I can stay up here forever
Never have to cry again
Because of pain or circumstance
Thinking of what could have been
Today I’m free and I can run
But now I am content
To sit upon these shoulders
And think of how my days are spent
I can turn His face to mine
When I want to see His smile
And if I miss those left behind
He’ll hold me for awhile
I will be His little one
Always on my knees
His words ring in my head today,
“Just look at all of these.”