Hearing Voices

I hear a voice
Can’t help but wonder
Did you sound like that?
Even though I
Have peace and hope
Knowing where you’re at.
For Jesus is
The King of Kings,
He loved you so much.
Now it is He
Who cares for you
And feels your true touch.
Cloudy skies when
The rain so soft falls
Lightly to the earth.
Sometimes I look up
And wonder how much
This is really worth.
To sit down here
And weep for you, ten
Thousand tears, I’m sure,
When all the while
What I want is to be
With you one day more.
Deep inside, I
Scream and shout because
I want this to end.
A life is lost
An angel made
Of my cherished friend.
But when my grief
Comes blinding me in
Unrelenting waves,
I remember
How my sweet Jesus
Mercifully saves.
I’m thinking now,
And I know that
Jesus felt such joy
Enveloping
Gently in His arms,
You, His little boy.

When I Turned Away

When I turned away from You
I could not understand
How You would still be here for me
Continuing to hold my hand.
Recently, I realized
It was Your glory I stole
When I chose to live for me
And have all the control.
When I turned away from You
I cherished material things
Never knowing, all the while
I was in the shadow of Your wings.
A few months back I was content
To live a life of sin
It didn’t make sense that I had to lose
My life to You so I could win.
When I turned away from You
I shut out the light
Because I felt strong enough
To stand alone and fight.
And then one day my eyes were opened
Truth finally showed through
The way I could have life and strength
Was by falling on my face before You.
So when someone turns away from You
Due to earthly desires and human fears
I pray they will come back to You, their Father,
Whose eyes are full of tears.

Burden

I asked for a burden
You gave me a child
To befriend and love
My world was crushed
When he was taken
A fallen angel from above.
But I asked, Lord,
“Ask and you shall receive.”
I asked for a burden
Now I can’t make it leave.
My eyes were opened
My heart was changed
As his young spirit fought
The battle within him raged.
Circumstances are altered
I think differently
If not for the blood of Jesus
I would not be set free.
I want to give up
And take the fall
But You’re there to pick me up
So I can stand tall.
And I asked for a burden
So it’s only right
To carry it quietly
Into the night.

Journey To Jesus

Walking in the house each day
You were the oldest one.
It was you who cared
When your brother was scared
Of the dark, and longed for the sun.
Walking in a friend’s front door,
You took in his terrible pain.
Instead of turning around,
Words of kindness you found
Sheltering him from the rain.
Getting in a car one night,
You caught a ride for home.
He made a choice,
But you heard a voice:
“You will not face this alone.”
Walking down the crowded street,
Your heart longs for the prize -
But how it breaks
When you observe
The absence of light in people’s eyes.
Walking down the halls in school,
You were only one boy.
But how the heads turned
When your passion burned
As you sang to God with joy.
Then, one day, it happened.
You dropped onto the floor.
But God’s mighty grace
Shown upon your face
As He breathed life into you once more.
And now the end is coming,
It’s your time to stand tall.
Even though you fear it
And you don’t want to hear it,
You can’t ignore God’s call.
A hand is extended before you
Beckoning, soft and warm.
In this unfamiliar place
You recognize one face,
And run into Jesus’ open arms.

Broken

I am so unworthy, God
Why did You chose me
To be an earthly child of Yours?
How can this be?
I am so dirty, Father
So sinful, so unclean
Please break this off and wash me
So I’m the child You’ve seen.
Oh how I want to bring You joy
I long to be Your tool,
But so far, I must admit
I’ve acted like a fool.
Not praising You or thanking You
When I wake up each day,
You have given me so much
You are the light You are the way.
Lord, You gave Your only Son
He took away my sin
God, when will I realize
I must lose so I can win?
And be with You
At Your right hand
Someday in heaven,
I will stand.