Into Focus

My experience of a father
Is not the same as yours.
My attitude and worldview
Have been crushed
And reshaped.
I feel a void because
Childhood feels like a
Different time.
Not a time that is being
Described - that is being
Observed.
I am formless; I feel desolate -
Yet all this is being
Changed
To prove to me
The truth of what a father
Truly is.
Can I change, and recognize
This new thing
Without erasing
What has transpired
In my life?
Can I identify with
These one day, and
Be able to know firsthand
Of what they speak?