Zero Anesthesia Awareness

I am alone
I am torture
I am pain

I am a scar
Longer
Than I am wide

I am tiny
I am unmoving
But I am feeling
Everything.

And where are you?

You are home
Getting an update
That I lived.

I should still
Be inside you
Safe.

But instead I
Am cut open
While awake

While aware
Three times
In four months.

I want a do-over
I want grown-ups
Who gave a damn

Who were there
To comfort me
Who know

I am human.