While Angels Wait

Two brothers
A single soul
He has peace
You fight for control.
Now you’re apart
Forever, it seems
At night one plays
In the other’s dreams.
You saw him
Before he got wings
And now from heaven
Your angel sings
Over you, a joyful song
So the time you wait
Won’t feel as long.
And so for now
On earth you’ll stay
Until God comes
To carry you away.
The first you’ll see
Will be his face.
The first you’ll feel
Is his embrace.
Today, please know
That while you stand
And wait for God
To take your hand
You have friends around
Who care, it’s true,
And the best kind of angel
Watching over you.

How?

How do I express
The void left in my heart
The day God came
To take you home?
How can I put into words
The pain I feel
And try to hide?
How is it possible to let them see
How bad I hurt
And the emptiness that fills me?
How can I accept
That I will never
Get another letter,
Or another kind word
From you?
With God’s help
I will get better.
With His presence
I will feel joy.
His love will overflow in me,
The sadness will be no more.
I know you aren’t completely gone
Because you are with Him.
I also pray I will see you
Someday, in heaven,
My friend.

In His Own Words

"Even as I write this, I can feel
My fingers shaking.
Death makes me feel lonely…
It fills me with sadness
Just thinking of
What is to come.
Why do I have to die?
Sometimes I get angry at God
For making this happen to me,
And I’ll almost start to cry
Because all I can think about is
How much I don’t want to die
And how much I wish
I was healthy.
How do those who actually die
Get chosen?
I’d rather battle life than have to die.
Mostly, I get scared.
My body is slowly deteriorating.
I have trusted in the Lord
And I am made to die.
Fearing death is worse than
Crashing into a pickup truck.
I can’t bear this…
It brings too much pain
Too much heartache
It hurts.
I will not allow myself to die.
I can’t. I won’t.
I can’t leave…but I know I will.
I know you’re gonna miss me
And it’s gonna hurt for a long time
But remember I am with God
In a wonderful place
Where I can feel no harm or sin.
Life is beautiful.
Never give up on it.
Goodbye…
I love you."

*Compiled by me, from E-mails from Shane.

Nothing Hurts

At heaven’s gate
She stands,
Waiting for her Father.
Today, she’s perfect.
Nothing hurts.
After talking a while
With her Lord
They decide what she
Will do.
Smiling broadly
She says, “Okay,
As long as I don’t have to cook.”
God laughed.
His daughter had such wit and humor.
Adapting quickly,
She loves her position,
Meeting new arrivals
Who come in.
She assists the elderly
Up to the sky.
Getting down softly,
She greets the children,
Comforting those
Who are sad.
The ones who are
Too weak to walk
She carries
To her Father’s throne
Where He gives them
Wings to fly.
Looking down
Around a cloud,
She notices
Someone coming.
Putting on her best smile,
She reaches out
For the hand she knows
Will be there.
Her distinctive grin
Softened as she looked
Into a tired young face,
Much like her own
Had been.
“Hi,” she said softly.
“I’m the angel of joy.”
The face of the child
Was drained of color.
Breathing was an effort
In itself.
Standing at the gate
She caught him
As his leg gave.
She saw his eyes were full of tears.
“It’s okay…I know.”
Lifting him gently,
She brought him to
God’s throne
Where he was given wings to fly.
Today, he’s perfect.
Nothing hurts.

The Power Of God's Love

Every day, I am amazed
I think, “How can this be?”
That God showed you the love He had
And you gave that to me.
A simple thing,
I know you think
It isn’t very much.
And now I finally understand
That you don’t have a magic touch.
But what you do have
Is much greater than any worldly thing.
You have love, which comes from God,
Our Father, Lord, and King.
I was on my way to God-knows-where
When you reached out a hand
To lend support and comfort
And to help me understand.
In your obedience
And your choice,
I heard God speaking
Through your voice.
There is one verse I remember,
“I am weak, then I am strong.”
You quoted that and I realized
To Him I do belong.
Discovering God’s love again
I could finally see
God had a plan for my life on earth,
And that knowledge set me free.
So if there’s one thing I want to do
Before God takes me home,
It’s to do for someone what you did for me
With the kindness and love I’ve been shown.
I thank God that He sent down
An angel to turn my life around.
I’m more grateful for what you’ve done,
Because I understand the race you run.
But if we are determined and persevere,
We have no reason at all to fear.
He is guiding your steps,
Making your path
I believe we’ll be friends for now
And many years after.
You are a precious gift from God
He sent to do His best.
For the work He’s done through you,
I’ll be forever blessed.