Falling Away

I made a decision
To give my life
And live in holiness.
Yet today,
It seems like everything
Is gone.
Today, I doubt
And live for the world,
Pretending I can’t see
The people.
Inside, hearts are
All the same,
But I judge them
Because of their faces.
I am weak and worthless.
Here on earth I’ll stay,
And though I want God
To come back to me
My mind tells me otherwise.
For the millionth time
I’m falling away,
I took my focus from the King.
So once again I’ll stand
And begin
Climbing the Rock.